If you're reading this, you're probably interested to know where I've been this past month. January and February have been two of the hardest months of my life. Although January and 2012 started off well, January ended with my grandma suddenly suffering a stroke. While she was in surgery having the blood clot removed, my family and I gathered together and shared our favorite memories with our grandparents, hearing stories of my mom and her siblings growing up and praying that grandma would make a full recovery. She was moved to the ICU later that night and we were informed that she lost her speech and the movement of her right arm.
During the next week, a family member was with her as much as possible. Doctors commented that she was starting to recover in just the few days they've seen her and were confident that, with some long term rehab, she could live a fairly normal life. She stayed in the hospital for about a week and during that time I had a whole day with her to myself. I held her hand, read to her and we watched TV together. Even though she could not speak, I know she loved my visit. Two days later she was moved to a rehab facility where she passed away the next night. I had never lost a loved one before but now I know that the pain is unimaginable. I felt like the whole world should have stopped. Even though the rest of the world continued spinning, my world stopped. I didn't work, didn't read, didn't blog, didn't even turn on my phone. I can't even remember what I was reading the day she passed.
It's been a few weeks now and I even started reading a book a couple days ago. I didn't intend for this unexpected hiatus to last into March and I wanted everyone to know that I will be back to my normal blogging schedule soon. I also wanted to apologize for my complete absence in the blogging community, but I just couldn't write any of it down until today. I hope you will all understand and continue reading and following my blog.
Yes, I'm the bald baby on the left, haha!