If you're reading this, you're probably interested to know where I've been this past month. January and February have been two of the hardest months of my life. Although January and 2012 started off well, January ended with my grandma suddenly suffering a stroke. While she was in surgery having the blood clot removed, my family and I gathered together and shared our favorite memories with our grandparents, hearing stories of my mom and her siblings growing up and praying that grandma would make a full recovery. She was moved to the ICU later that night and we were informed that she lost her speech and the movement of her right arm.
During the next week, a family member was with her as much as possible. Doctors commented that she was starting to recover in just the few days they've seen her and were confident that, with some long term rehab, she could live a fairly normal life. She stayed in the hospital for about a week and during that time I had a whole day with her to myself. I held her hand, read to her and we watched TV together. Even though she could not speak, I know she loved my visit. Two days later she was moved to a rehab facility where she passed away the next night. I had never lost a loved one before but now I know that the pain is unimaginable. I felt like the whole world should have stopped. Even though the rest of the world continued spinning, my world stopped. I didn't work, didn't read, didn't blog, didn't even turn on my phone. I can't even remember what I was reading the day she passed.
It's been a few weeks now and I even started reading a book a couple days ago. I didn't intend for this unexpected hiatus to last into March and I wanted everyone to know that I will be back to my normal blogging schedule soon. I also wanted to apologize for my complete absence in the blogging community, but I just couldn't write any of it down until today. I hope you will all understand and continue reading and following my blog.
Yes, I'm the bald baby on the left, haha!
9 comments:
I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a grandmother is incredibly painful. It's wonderful that you were able to spend a whole day with her before she went though.
I am very sorry to hear this. Yes life goes on for others but your life has been changed forever. I miss my Grandpa all the time. I would always call him when I was down. It will get better.
Angie
I am very sorry for your loss.
I lost a Grandma and a Grandpa and it hurts like hell. I wish you all the best.
Nickey
So sorry to hear about your grandma!! I hope things are picking up for you now, good luck with everything. Glad to have you back :)
Anna @ Literary Exploration
I'm so sorry! I lost my grandma in May and then my grandpa in October. I still miss them both everyday. As time goes you still think about them and miss them so bad, but I tend to think more about the good times than the loss at this point. Books have helped me to escape the sadness for chunks of time. Sending happy thoughts your way!
It breaks my heart to hear about your grandmother. My grandpa was in the hospital a few months ago, where he died, and since I live across the country I didn't get to say goodbye. I hope you'll always remember that last day you spent with her, and that she knew how much you love her.
*hugs* So glad that you were able to have time with her - I went through a similar thing last year with my own grandmother. Being with them at the end is bittersweet, and painful to have to finally let go. But sending you warm thoughts and love. <3 <3
Your grandmother looks like a great lady. I'm so sorry for your loss.
I lost my grandma in November. (I sent you an email.)
Even four months later it hasn't sunk in.
I am so, so sorry, for the loss and for the added shock of it coming so soon on predictions she'd be back to normal before long. :(
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